I want to die

Got your attention? There have been times in my life where I was so depressed that I felt like I did want to die. For some reason the world got the best of me, I listened to Satan’s lies, I forgot who I was and whose I was. Ever been there or on the way there? Maybe you are there now.

The truth is God desires for us to die. Don’t stop reading here! This is a different kind of death. Paul writes in Galatians 2:19-20 ‘For through the law I died to the law so that I might live for God. I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.’ Our death is different, it equals life. Obviously God’s math is a bit different from that of the public school. You + Christ / Death = New Life. What kind of weird equation is this? One that is true.

Depression comes in many forms and many ways, but it comes to us because we are not living in our new lives. It may be chemical, circumstantial, or just a bad day but it all adds up to us not living fully in Christ. This does not make Christ a magic pill to take and create a better life. It doesn’t mean that you just need to believe more and everything will be ok. What it means is that even in our darkest times, we can cling to life – life in Christ. When we feel like our lives are too painful, we can cling to the hope found in Christ. What if Judas had waited one more day? What if Seung-Hui Cho, Charles Joseph Whitman, Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold knew that they could cling? What if you hold on for one more day?

Dear Child – you are loved by the creator of all things. You are loved by the God of peace and hope. So when you feel like it’s too much or you have had enough or you just can go on, cling…and call someone who will listen


1 Comment »

  1. uma Said:

    Hey brother thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. It really touched and I appreciate your willingness to be vunerable. Thank you brother.

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